PinnedMember-onlyThis Grief Journey…Earlier this year, I very unexpectedly lost my dad. He was my favorite person in the whole world — the most good-natured and delightful human I know. On January 18th at 9:55pm, I woke up to a panicked and hysterical phone call from my step-mom that I will never forget…Grief5 min readGrief5 min read
PinnedHow Love is Expressed: A Short Story about Dads and DaughtersAt 7:30am this morning my daughter sat in my husband’s lap with her forehead pressed against his, her two little hands cupped around his face — eye gazing. Then they silently moved from eye gazing to looking at the little scars on their bodies, and touching them with their fingers…Parenting3 min readParenting3 min read
Feb 13Grief-Love On My BirthdayAs I ran this morning, taking a turn from Divisadero back onto Page Street, momentum building under my feet as I listened to All My Love by Elderbook, my dad “randomly” pops into my mind. I hear him say, in response to me asking him how he is doing, “I’m…Grief3 min readGrief3 min read
Feb 10Turning 40. What?!?Our neighbor’s daughter, Alice, who was a senior in high school at the time interviewed me for a creative non-fiction essay she was writing for her senior class. I hadn’t seen Alice in a few years, since the interview, as she went off to college shortly after. Last week, Alice…Birthday5 min readBirthday5 min read
Jan 12End of Night Mama ~ Rage & PracticeLanding here to write — a cold laptop beneath my wrists, candlelight to my right, and a heater to my left. I’m crosslegged at the kitchen table with the space heater whirling a cozy warmth. A moment ago I was in rage. The evening routine started out peaceful with my…Parenting5 min readParenting5 min read
Nov 28, 2022In Search of Deeper Connection“Our deepest knowing is interested in the truth. How things really are. This knowing has no agenda to survive, to fit in, to be admired or to feel better. Its concern is with love, wisdom and integrity and being in service to the whole.” ~John Prendergast Last week I caught…Mindfulness4 min readMindfulness4 min read
Nov 17, 2022A Lesson on BoundariesYour boundary need not be an angry electric fence that shocks those who touch it. It can be a consistent light around you that announces: I will be treated sacredly. ~Jaiya John I’ve been thinking a lot, these days, on how to be more deeply attuned, listening to my own…Boundaries3 min readBoundaries3 min read
Oct 20, 2022Illuminating A Childhood PatternAt San Francisco Waldorf School, last Friday afternoon, me and my husband eagerly sit down with our daughter (Maya’s) two kindergarten teachers for our first fall parent-teacher conference. In that little office, I sit very straight, READY, like a catcher with a mitt waiting to receive a report on Maya…5 min read5 min read
Jul 8, 2021Member-onlyOn Enough ~ A Lesson from the PandemicLast night, I was feverishly baking paleo cookies at 9:30pm at night, while chit chatting with my sister on the phone about how I’m trying to cut out dairy to support an anti-inflammatory diet. This is really code for saying I’m trying to lose the extra pandemic weight that stacked…Enough3 min readEnough3 min read
Jul 8, 2021Member-onlyHow to Let Go… ❤“Breathe in what you need, and breathe out what you don’t need… let go…” — Lea, the self-compassion teacher, would guide us during our community workshops together. I sat there wondering, a bit perplexed: “Letting go sounds really nice. But how do I actually doooooo that?” I mustered the courage…Self Compassion2 min readSelf Compassion2 min read
